Life Worth Living

Dear Diary,

June sometime 2018,

“So I am going to be 24 in just over a month… I haven’t figured out what this means yet but I have come to the realization I have to now start “being an adult”.  And the only thing I’m sure “being an adult” means is paying for my own stuff. So episode 1 of paying for my own stuff is budgeting to attempt to get a new car.”

Every once in a while I go through the 10 or so drafts I have in my inventory to see if I can finish one or if I’ve completely lost the inspiration behind it and it is time to delete it. Well this time, I came across this small blurb that I wrote just over a year ago and it is funny that my posts haven’t changed much except for 1 teeeeeny tiny… major thing. I am actually the adult that I was trying to become. When I wrote that blurb I had a list of cars I was interested in (and funnily enough my car wasn’t even on the list). I had every brand I could think of and the type of car(s) I liked from them. My car was acting up and I was tired of putting money into the repairs, I was basically making car payments but keeping the same car I had had for 7 years. I started saving and kept my list on my nightstand. I put 20% into my savings account and 8 months later I had a good down payment on my beautiful car (she’s recently named herself Punkin’).

Being an adult is nothing like what kids or even teens think it is going to be, except it is 100%. You get to watch what you want, wear what you want, eat what you want, sleep where you want, and buy what you want. The catch is that you also have to pay for all of those choices yourself as well. All of our decisions have consequences be it positive or negative they must be dealt with. I’ve been blessed that my decisions have had some majorly positive outcomes. I have moved to a new state away from my family. I work for a company I love and believe in. I finally love my body and take care of it in the way I dress, eat, and exercise. But most importantly I am in a great place mentally. In high school I spent years wondering if my friends actually liked me–and it turns out most of them didn’t actually give a hoot (shout out to my 1 friend from high school I still keep in touch with!). In college I spent a lot of time feeling like an idiot, I never had to study much in high school and when I got to college I would study for days to do basic. For the first time in my life I fit in and feel like I am where I am meant to be. I have amazing friends (spread across the globe!) with a great social life where people put in the effort to see and talk to me as much as I do them. I truly enjoy my job and love making magic for families. I have no intentions of leaving any time soon but I also get to use my spare time to help the family business with its media.

As much as I love my life, it is a year later… I’ve had my car 2ish months and it is time to manifest the next step in my adult life.

This time next year I will have a puppy and it’s time to save for a house. Just watch.

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